What I Learned in 2019
A new year is full of resolutions and fresh starts. It’s exciting, right? But let’s be real, it is also a season of disappointment with unmet goals and dreams that we hoped to have accomplished by now. It can be a season of fear and expectations can overwhelm us if we focus on the unknown. We see a bright future, big possibilities and hope. At the same time we experience our humanness, failures, and unmet desires. It can be tough to balance these differing emotions at the same time and find peace with them.
I have been mulling on this. I have lived enough life to know that basing hope and joy on dreams is a house of cards sure to tumble. On December 31st I jotted down things I learned and am still very much learning.
Here it goes…
2020 is alive, it is potential, it is an opportunity. It is golden morning sunbeams of hope. It richer than a glass of red wine, pasta dinner with friends, dark chocolate, and deep cobalt blue paint streaked on a clean canvas. Feel the WONDER. Yep, we will fall on our face. We will make mistakes. We will miss deadlines and overcommit and not get enough sleep. We will let people down and we will forget what’s most important. We will feel discouraged. We will doubt ourselves. But we will get back up again. We will learn. We will become stronger, wiser, and more graceful. We will learn to live with open hands instead of strong arming. We will do it all with tears, laughter, and a grin on our face. 2020 will be a “successful” year if we show up with our whole heart, pause instead of react, dance with the ups and downs, feel joy and sadness because all feelings are a gift. 2020 will be a “successful” year if we see the beauty in the many mundane very normal days. Most importantly, 2020 will be a “successful” year if we follow our light, even when the light is only a glimmer, with our WHOLE being.
2020 friends – shall we do it?