March 28, 2014
IF SOMEBODY HAD TOLD ME THAT GROWING A BUSINESS WAS THIS HARD….
If somebody would have told me that growing a business was this hard….
That I would feel the cold fist of fear wrap around my arms telling me I can’t. I am not enough. You are a fraud. Who do you think you are??
That my to-do list would never feel quite caught up and I should be marketing this way and get that pretty template..and, and, and…
That editing would take me away from my family…and make me look square in the face my role as a mother and a business owner.
That I would feel my stomach DROP when my inbox is silent from new client inquiries but BRIMMING with time sucking maintenance emails.
That I would leave a wedding in tears.
That it would always feel like there are rock stars…..and then little me.
That my dream client would choose somebody else.
When my hard work……..would be met by silence and my brain would tell me I am a fool.
The overwhelming feeling of doing this AND succeeding would feel JUST. TOO. HARD.
I would doubt myself and ask if it is worth…and just be ‘normal’. (What is normal, anyway?)
That I would consume two million cups of coffee…
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WOULD I HAVE CONTINUED?
Stepping back and asking myself that….the answer is 100%….YES.
This make my blood pump. It makes me feel alive. The need to keep running, dreaming, and working hard is as powerful as the cold air that fills my lungs when yet again….I look into the horizon. The passion for for doing this…all of this….runs so deep in my veins.
Being in business in not a mountain top experience. It is grueling. It is a WHOLE LOT OF HARD WORK. And not just tangible hand work. It is a whole lot of emotional work. Heart work. It kinda hits you at your core. It is easy to look at somebody and think…when I get to that point…THEN the dots will connect and I will breeze along. But honestly…I am not sure that ever really happens. Moving forward, leaning in, giving our whole heart, and looking at the horizon instead of our fears….continues to be a choice.
The sweetness…the smile….the I LOVE THIS…is right in front of us, within reach. It is in the process. In the…..’This is me and holy shmooly, this is hard work but look how far I have come and I am so excited for what is to come…..’
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– Image is from a recent photo shoot with TOMATO PIE…so excited to have this beautiful cafe provide food for the styled dinner at our May WORKSHOP. –
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my husband and I are business owners and my heart says a thousand yes’s to this. its so hard, but so rewarding and so exciting to look back and see the growth!
Love this, Char! I can relate at so many levels. Thanks for posting!
So glad you did it! It has changed my life! Love seeing this business grow and develop – it is such a joy to be part of it!
This was beautifully written Char! It may or may not have made me tear up just a little bit. So true.. and so powerful! So grateful to be working with you! xx